Have you ever had a chain of events happen that led to something unexpected? If the timing of even one thing in that chain was off, the end result would not have happened. It’s so crazy to me when this happens. In fact, it happened to me just yesterday.
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This is so good. I am so bad at comparing myself to others. I always feel like other women my age are far more put together than myself. The funny thing is, I’ve had friends and coworkers ask me how I seem to be managing so well. Me?? I must put up a good front because I’m the conductor of the Hot Mess Express that is my life.
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When I first came back to church in 2011, I was obsessed with “finding my purpose” in life. The book “Purpose Driven Life” was still popular around that time. I not only read the book- I took extensive notes in a special little hard-cover notebook that I bought just for the occasion. The notebook had the poem “Footprints” recessed into the wood on the front. It was very nice; I still have it and all the notes.
I would love to tell you that after reading and taking notes on every page of that book that a light bulb went off and I knew my life’s purpose. But, alas, I was still clueless.
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If you haven’t already, please go back and read the intro. These letters will make much more sense if you read the intro first, thanks.
January 19, 2019*
Dear Jesus,
I don’t know what’s going on with me today. I’m just really not feeling it. I’m so bored with life. Bored of shopping. Bored of laundry. Bored of cleaning. Bored of working. Bored of the same ole same ole every week. Day in, day out. There must be more to life than how I’m living.
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If you haven’t already, please go back and read the intro. These letters will make much more sense if you read the intro first, thanks.
August 24, 2017
Dear Jesus,
I have been so bored with my life for years. I feel like I have no purpose, no direction. I know I’m supposed to reach the lost and raise godly kids, but sometimes I don’t feel like the right girl for the job. Like, maybe they would do better if raised by someone else.
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If you haven’t already, please go back and read my intro. These letters will make much more sense if you read the intro first, thanks.
May 24, 2017
Dear Jesus,
I feel so blah all the time. So tired of struggling through this life. Tired of being bored and lonely. Tired of feeling sad. Tired of being broke and working for other people. Tired of being tired and feeling hopeless. Tired of being alone. Tired of feeling not good enough. Tired of all of it, really. I’m just so, very tired.
Yolanda
If you haven’t already, please go back and read the intro. These letters will make much more sense if you read the intro first, thanks.
August 12, 2015
Dear Jesus,
Today I am so tired. So worn out. So burned out. So frustrated. So give out. I desperately want to send my kids to a friend’s house and just do nothing for like three days. No work, no cleaning, nothing! Sometimes I just want to lie down and die. I work so hard and wear myself out but never get ahead. I’m always behind on bills, and I can never do anything fun with my kids.
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If you haven’t already, please go back and read the intro. These letters will make much more sense if you read the intro first, thanks.
July 2, 2015
Dear Jesus,
I’m so tired of feeling hopeless. I hate my life. I know I shouldn’t say that, but I do. I am so joyless, better, and angry all the time. I can’t remember the last time I was truly happy. I dream of just lying down to die. I just want to give up. I don’t see the point. I feel defeated.
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*If you haven’t already, please go back and read the intro. These letters will make much more sense if you read the intro first, thanks.
June 25, 2015
Dear Jesus,
I’m finding it harder and harder to find someone to relate to me. I always feel like I’m a burden or a pest when I try to talk to other people about my problems. I used to feel as though I could tell my friends anything and they would listen and give me advice. But now it seems they are just listening to be nice and are tired of hearing from me. I can’t say that I blame them. I’m tired of myself and my same old problems too. So, I guess I will just use this time of friendless solitude to take my problems to the Lord, and hopefully change some things. Maybe that’s what God wants me to do, why he’s he has removed all my friends. Who knows? Problems I need to address:
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Apostolic Momma 
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