November 15, 2018
This morning, James said, “I think I’ve lost weight.” I told him surely he hasn’t and told him to get on the scale. Sure enough, he had gained 2 pounds and is now 39 pounds. He looked very sad and started to cry. I asked why he was sad and crying. He just shrugged his shoulders like he didn’t know.
But I knew. All his life I have told him how I hope he stays tiny forever and how I will be sad when he gets big. So now, he’s sad that he’s growing. Honestly, I am sad too. He’s my baby and he’s so small and cuddly still. But, alas, I know that he has to grow up someday and it breaks my heart.
I’ll Always Love You
So I asked, “Are you sad because you’re getting bigger and you’re scared that I won’t love you anymore?” To which he just nodded his head and cried- which made me cry. I reassured him that he’ll always be my baby no matter how big he gets, even as big as Ty (my adult son)! And that if he wants to ride the big rides at the fair, he has to grow and get bigger.
This seemed to cheer him up a tiny bit and he finished getting ready for school. My sweet, tiny little boy: I will always love you