If you haven’t already, please go back and read the intro. These letters will make much more sense if you read the intro first, thanks.
August 24, 2017
I have been so bored with my life for years. I feel like I have no purpose, no direction. I know I’m supposed to reach the lost and raise godly kids, but sometimes I don’t feel like the right girl for the job. Like, maybe they would do better if raised by someone else.
Someone with more patience, more money, more free time, more creative, more fun, more energetic… all these things that I lack. I feel like I have nothing to offer them, really. I do love them, but is that good enough? I don’t know. I feel like I make all the wrong choices and say “no” too much. I am always too tired to do fun stuff or too broke to go anywhere. I hope my kids and I aren’t distant when they’re grown. I don’t want to be old and alone. Lord help me.