It goes by many names: existential depression, existential crisis, existential anxiety, existential angst… but what is it exactly? It’s pretty hard to describe if you’ve never experienced it. Here is the best definition I’ve found so far:
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August 16, 2015
I was at the store today and started tearing up while looking at the hundreds of lost people in my city. I wished I could give them all a card and invited them to church, then I felt helpless because there were so many. This story came to mind and I remembered, even if I only reach one, it would still matter.
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School time is upon us once again! This will be my third year working as a school nurse. I have experience at the elementary and high school level. Let me preface this post by saying that I absolutely love my job. However, as with all jobs working with kids, the most frustrating part can be dealing with parents.
Continue reading Things Your Child’s School Nurse Wants You to Know for a Successful School Year
Sometimes we get discouraged while praying for the lost. We faithfully pray for that lost child or spouse and we aren’t seeing any change. Occasionally, we may even feel like giving up or “giving it to God” and stop praying about it. I think the real definition of giving it to God is- stop worrying about it but keep on praying about it!
Continue reading The Power of Planting a Seed
If you haven’t already, please go back and read the intro. These letters will make much more sense if you read the intro first, thanks.
January 19, 2019*
Dear Jesus,
I don’t know what’s going on with me today. I’m just really not feeling it. I’m so bored with life. Bored of shopping. Bored of laundry. Bored of cleaning. Bored of working. Bored of the same ole same ole every week. Day in, day out. There must be more to life than how I’m living.
Continue reading Ramblings from the Wilderness- Part Seven
If you haven’t already, please go back and read the intro. These letters will make much more sense if you read the intro first, thanks.
August 24, 2017
Dear Jesus,
I have been so bored with my life for years. I feel like I have no purpose, no direction. I know I’m supposed to reach the lost and raise godly kids, but sometimes I don’t feel like the right girl for the job. Like, maybe they would do better if raised by someone else.
Continue reading Ramblings from the Wilderness- Part Six
If you haven’t already, please go back and read my intro. These letters will make much more sense if you read the intro first, thanks.
May 24, 2017
Dear Jesus,
I feel so blah all the time. So tired of struggling through this life. Tired of being bored and lonely. Tired of feeling sad. Tired of being broke and working for other people. Tired of being tired and feeling hopeless. Tired of being alone. Tired of feeling not good enough. Tired of all of it, really. I’m just so, very tired.
Yolanda
Our annual youth convention is only eight days away. I must confess, it is the highlight of my year. Why is that? Because we usually have a powerful move of God every service!
What separates these services apart from any other service? Usually, I will pray more and fast the days leading up to youth convention. Is that what makes a difference? Maybe, but I think the difference is that we come expecting.
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If you haven’t already, please go back and read the intro. These letters will make much more sense if you read the intro first, thanks.
August 12, 2015
Dear Jesus,
Today I am so tired. So worn out. So burned out. So frustrated. So give out. I desperately want to send my kids to a friend’s house and just do nothing for like three days. No work, no cleaning, nothing! Sometimes I just want to lie down and die. I work so hard and wear myself out but never get ahead. I’m always behind on bills, and I can never do anything fun with my kids.
Continue reading Ramblings from the Wilderness- Part Four
All these letters I’ve been posting lately really make me realize how broken I was for five years. Today on the way to church I was listening to “Waymaker”– which, by the way, is one of my favorite songs, and if you’ve never heard it, I highly suggest you take a listen- and I was thinking back about how God has been working in my life.
One part of the song says,
“Even when I don’t feel it, you’re working.
Even when I don’t see it, you’re working.
You never stop, you never stop working.”
That part really resonates with me because oftentimes, I can’t feel or see God at work, but I know he never stops working.
Apostolic Momma 
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